Late Nights

It's a little past midnight and I am sitting up typing on the computer while everyone else in the house is asleep. Everyone else, except for my 14 month old son who is nursing and watching me. This seems to be the norm nowadays--very little sleep for me and the baby wide awake along side of me. Noone ever told me growing up that all babies aren't the same. That some will be friendly, easy tempered, sleep through the night and overall what we consider to be "good babies". While other babies, like my son, require very little sleep, takes ten minute naps, are picky eaters, demanding, possessive of mommy, and still nurses past the one year mark with eight teeth (and counting) in their mouths.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE my son. I love all my children, but I have only had girls before. He is my only son and is the last of six children. I had NO idea that boys were really that different from girls. Sure, I heard the rumors but I took them with a grain of salt. Now, barely able to keep my eyes open night after night I am a believer. But, I will get through it. My mother always said that "God will never put more on you than you can bear" and I have to believe that. This won't last. Nothing ever lasts forever.

In spite of it all, I still consider myself very lucky to have been blessed with my children. I would absolutely, positively never trade them for anything in the world. If staying up late at night working my VA business is a requirement to being a good mommy to them then so be it. I will do whatever it takes. But I will have it all. I will be a good mommy, a great wife, and an outstanding business owner because I have the drive, the will, and the know-how to be the best. One day I will look back on these days and wonder if I could have done it differently, done it better. The answer will probably be "yes", but I am happy with things just the way they are.

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